Who's Winning?

Your classmates, if that's what you want to call them, pick on you daily.  They say horrendous things to you to make you feel inadequate.  They say things in front of the entire class or in front of a special person that you like and make you feel incompetent. These so called classmates do everything they can to make you feel pathetic.  Your reaction to this because you don't feel accepting to the things they say or do is to skip a day or so of school.  Then that day or so will turn to a week or so.  Then eventually you decide to drop out of school because you feel better about just staying away altogether.  Who won?  Do you know who won?  They won.  They were able to drive you away from the circle of people they wish they could attract.  There was something about you that they became jealous of and they felt the need to drive you away.  You walk around the halls of your school with a scowl on your face because you feel unpleasant about the way you have been treated when you should be doing exactly the opposite.  You should be walking around with a smile on your face big enough to out shine the sun.  Face your enemy and show them that whatever they are doing to you, hasn't effected you.  Carry your head high, stick your chest out like a good soldier and march on through the mud.  Your weapon will be your smile and your outward projection.

When you get home, if you feel the need, breakdown.  Cry.  Scream.  Do something that makes you feel better at getting the frustrations out so long as it does not harm others.  When you are done, write it down.  Journal it.  You think, 'Oh, what a stupid idea!'  Really?  I used to say the same thing.  As described in my book, The Train Runs No More I was bothered by a dream for thirty eight years because I did not think that by writing all of my disappointments down would do any good.  The moment I began to write is the moment a pressure valve opened and began letting off all the steam.  You will be amazed at how well it works.  For years I would refuse this suggestion by professional psychologists that I would go and express myself to.  Then I began to write.  A week after I began to write, the dreams had stopped.  I began to get more sleep.  I began to feel rested when I woke up in the morning.  I should have done this years ago.  For those of you reading this and are still young, you should do this now while you are still in your formative years.  If you feel you must find another school to attend, find it.  Stay in school and get your education.  While these other people are burning up their energy to figure out another way to drive you nuts, you are getting your education to possibly do some good in the world or place yourself in a better position than they could ever dream of.  Your happiness may not be now.  Your satisfaction may not be now.  Your gratitude may not be now.  All of this you have to work at.  Once your satisfaction and happiness come, you will be able to appreciate more.  Everything does not have to be now. 

As a teenager, you know more than your parents.  At least you think you do.  Even though your parents have lived a lifetime more than you, you still feel you know more than your parents.  It's when you become educated and have children that grow to be teenagers that you begin to know less than their children.  It happens with every generation.  You, yourself will be thought of as knowing less than your children when the time comes.  You will be amazed at how that works.  However, once you begin to sit and talk with your parents and I mean actually talk, then you will become as well educated as your parents and you will be able to handle your position in the world so much better.  You just have to be willing to open your mind and throw away the lock.  Listen to what they have to say.  Apply their ideas of yesterday to your issues of today and your world could be a better place.  Open up and listen.

Sneaky People

Sneaky people are those that will do something that they don't want you to know about.  They will plot behind your back and smile to your face.  They will ask you questions that you wonder why they are asking only to find out later they that they needed more ammunition.  Once they have pulled off their plot or committed some act of evil against you that they think that you don't know about, they remove themselves from whatever entity they think you can look them up in.  I have what I call acquaintances, that have unlisted their telephone numbers from the phone company.  They have removed themselves from the different social networks.  They have gone to a lot of trouble to hide from those they have offended.  When they have done this, you know that they realize they have done something hideous to you and they are not man enough to face you.  They no longer have the balls to come out into the light.  Whereas, if you are a friend of mine and I tell you something that I don't like about what you are doing to me, if you are still my friend, you will stop the act that you are committing and remain my friend, understanding the fact that I didn't like your offense.  Those are true friends.  The ones that have been caught, admit it and then go away, never to return.  Good riddance.  Even my older sibling brother has removed himself from the white pages, has no visible social media page, and thinks I cannot locate his address in Little Rock, Arkansas.  Too bad for him.  With my access to "tools" on the internet, I have already found his address and the piece of shit house he lives in in Arkansas.  Arkansas.  The poorest state in the union and why anyone would want to move to the poorest state in the union is beyond me.  For my brother thinking that he is so well educated that he has to ridicule the very people he works around in the hospital he works at, if those people are so dumb and stupid as he says they are, why stay there?  If they are so poorly educated, why not take a stand and help to promote better education there?  It's so much easier to complain about something than it is to fix something.  It's so much easier to ridicule someone than it is to help them.  I haven't met a nurse yet that doesn't think they are better than anyone else walking in an upright position.  Most of my high school classmates have become unlisted as though they think I am going to find them up one day.  Who gives a rat's ass?  Why would I ever want to reminisce such a horrible experience in my life?  Why would anyone?  By the way, I found them all anyway.  Away from them, I have become a better person, enjoyed life more, appreciated people better, and am able to decide in a short span of time whether I want to accept a person or not.  All of those people have taught me a great lesson.  They have taught me how to read a person.  Too bad that all of those people are taking such a long time to die off.  The best Karma there is, is the fact that they are all dying off at a younger age than myself and I am continuing on enjoying life.  My only hope is that I can teach the younger ones how to handle all of the maltreatment that they receive.  I certainly don't need a degree or book sense to realize when I or anyone else is being treated badly.  My advice isn't professional by any means.  It is life's experience and how mean and cruel people can be to one another.  If you want a true and loyal friend that will be by your side through thick and thin, that can read you like no other, that will love you unconditionally, get a dog.  To find a mate that will love you unconditionally, those are far and few between.  I have finally found a mate that does just that and she and I have been together for over twenty years now.  Unconditional love.  That is what really matters.  She doesn't try to change me.  I don't try to change her.  She is my best friend and my go to person.  She is my person.  That is the mate one should try to find.  Not one just because you are lonely.  Why find one that treats you badly, rather than be alone?   I have never understood that.  That only tells me that someone is lacking in self respect.  Love one's self first, then love another.  When you begin to love yourself, then you begin to find the one that you want.